I have played lacrosse since I was 11, and loved it from the moment that I first touched a stick. I have played in goal since my first match. Being in goal is a real thrill – the adrenaline rush that I get from seeing a strong opposition passing the ball around goal, knowing that they are about to shoot, is no short of addictive. And the excitement that I get from saving that shot, clearing the ball up-field and watching my attacks score off of the back of my save makes me feel ecstatic.
Although I was never an outstanding natural athlete, I worked hard and, at my peak, toured with the Wales Elite quad to the USA. I also captained the Welsh B squad to victory in the annual ‘Home Internationals’ tournament (England, Scotland, Ireland and Wales).
In 2011, I was admitted to psychiatric hospital for 6 months with severe depression and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. This was a very difficult time for me, and I was strongly advised to give up work and lacrosse whilst I focused on my recovery. My life was completely thrown upside-down. I didn’t know who I was, and had no control of my anger and fear for a long time. Just going out in public was a no-no as I would often have uncontrollable outbursts. Training or getting onto a pitch was out of the question. Added to that, the stress and tension that my body was carrying aggravated and old skiing accident and I experienced some severe muscular trauma in my back. Furthermore, my rigid, cowering posture caused my spinal vertebrae to become compressed.
I am now close to full physical and mental recovery, and it is time for me to start training again. But I am slowly nearing 30, and I am aware that my time to break into the international game is nearly up.
In 2017, the Women’s Lacrosse World Cup will be held in the UK – approximately a 20 minute walk from my front door. I will regret it if I haven’t done my best to make the team. But I have a lot of work to do. Fitness wise, I am starting pretty much from zero. And I haven’t practiced any of my skills or played in a game for nearly two years. It’s a tall order. Will I make it, or is this too little too late?
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